"We love because he first loved us." (I John 4:19)
The love that I feel for Jesus is indescribable. I remember the first time that He entered my life. I had never experienced anything like His love before. I could run to Him and confide in Him any time, day or night and I never doubted for a moment that He would betray my trust, because that is not in His character. Come next month He will have proven Himself to be faithful to me for 26 years. Who would have thought that I would be one of the chosen few.
I remember when I was in high school, I doubted that Jesus even existed and I even went so far as to say that I bordered on the line of an agnostic or an atheist , but Jesus look who loves you now. When my mama used to listen to gospel music, I would be so embarrassed and then to top it off, when the gospel music would end at 11:00 am, she would turn the radio off, because she said " We are not listening to the devil's music in my house". I thought that she was being old fashioned but now I guess I am old fashioned too, because the only music that I thirst for is music that sing the praises of Jesus.
The love that I have for the Lord is not a honeymoon type of love but it is a settled love. I love looking at the clouds because it reminds me of Him. When it rains I look forward to seeing a rainbow because it reminds me of his promise, never to destroy mankind with a flood again. I love to read the bible because it is a love letter to me and it is a mystery to the ones who do not love him. More recently I fell in love with Jesus even more, because I started seeing a change in my daughter that only Jesus could have done and it was genuine.
I told her about a bible study that I was doing by Setting Captives Free called the Lord's Table. She told me that she would do it with me and instantly she was changed in the presence of a Holy God. She is constantly reminding me of what I taught her as a child and how thankful she is for the sound doctrine that she was taught. I cherish these things and they bring me to tears. At any given moment I become "happy". That is what the older people when I was younger would call joy for the Lord.
I feel like David when he asked God " what is man that you are mindful of him and the son of man that you care for him?" (Ps: 8:4). God is faithful. None of my labor is in vain. I was like Catherine Booth of the Salvation Army, because I too said said "Lord I will not stand before you without my children". The Lord wanted me to pray for my children and he is so faithful, His word never comes back to Him void. I am leaving a legacy behind and this is what I prayed for years ago. I always told my children that I never desired for them to be rich or famous but I wanted them to do great things for the Lord. Not that I wanted them to be a Billy Graham or a John Calvin, but to me any Christian who submit to the Lord, has done great things for Him and this was and is my desire
God is honoring me because I honored Him. I am in love with Jesus. I love Jesus because He is faithful. I love Jesus because He is Omnipotent, I love Jesus because He is the Savior, I love Jesus because He prays for me, I love Jesus because He did not leave me as an orphan, I love Jesus because He is coming back for me, I love Jesus because He allows my deceased love ones to be in His presence, but most of all the reason that I love Jesus is because He first loved me. It was His love that wooed me unto Him and it was His love that caused me to love Him in return and it is His love that is keeping me. Hallelujah, what a Savior.
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